Farewell, My Friend

Your words echo within the heart

though the fade gently away

swiftly leading to silence

I stood staring into the distance

the setting sun creating illustrous

colors across the sky

You did not stand by my side

As I stared at the mixture of color

Red and blues mingled into yellow

and you vanished into the dark

that stood behind me

Alone - always alone I stand

Unable to speak a word

in comfort to anyone

Do you remember me?

I often think of you, fondly 

and wonder what has become of you

Do you think of me?

I see you, with your family 

Laughing, and you happy.

Is that not what friends what

for each other?  It does not matter

if you do think of me, or 

remember me. All that matters

is if you are happy.

____

White crescent smile

pulls eyes into distraction

thoughts fade into daze

Memories slightly out of reach

though you are there - watching

and waiting - Memoires out of reach

Burnt image,s engraved thoughts

you stand there staring from a distance

were we ever really friends.

~~~~

Today is Thursday, and I went out for an hour.  

I felt what it was like to be a flower.

They (you know them), stared at me with delight

and for once, I did not run in fright.

I just smiled, and made eye contact.

They actually looked away, in fact!

I had overcame the shyness, but I still

did not speak.  I just did not have the will.

You know my shyness, It's hard to overcome.

I just shut down and become real numb.

Do you know why I can just be me?

I know they look, and they do see

that I stand there lost and alone,

but I'm a man - fierce on my own.

Instead, I just begin to freeze,

though it should be a breeze

for me to speak with eloquence,

and charm - I should stand with confidence

that I am true, I am not you..

False, and quick to run.  Blue

ocean fades to black, and the flower

begins to wither away - losing power.

The truth is I'm scared, and you know it.

I hide inside everyday, letting time waste away.

You live outside, amongst the masses

and I do not envy you - I admire you. 

You'll never understand, and that is okay. 

Go live your life, be yourself, be free...

and I'll stay behind and remain me.