The ocean roars with thundering clashing into the rocks, slowly eroding them away with time. Patience is on it's side... time is on it's side... as I will not be here tomorrow to witness the constant onslaught because time is not on mine... and patience slipped away just yesterday.
I once was political, err - if you consider writing political idealogoy but not sharing it with a single soul. Counter intiutive, I believe - yet that was me. Hiding behind an exterior that no one would suspect lied a rebel with a cause, but whose voice was soft and meek... unwilling to speak. Shaking, shivering upon a podium - giving a speech that brought applause and praise... and still, unwilling to speak.
Shame, what a shame to live a life in hiding. What a shame to fear others... to be exposed and to be known. That is what held me back, myself. I stay hidden, yet I am better than I ever been in speaking. Words, they can be formed poetically, or interesting - but the biggest use is to convey a message, a meaning... to have a purpose.
What is the purpose of my blog? To share my thoughts and emotions... writings.. dribble drablle and to seek self-glorification? No. It's to connect, and to rise up out of the shadows I've hidden in for my entire life. It's to reclaim myself, and rise out of the ashes of fear. No more fear, no more not being myself.
Life is too short to worry about what others think, or what you may say may come come back and hurt you... life is too short to worry, and waste time with undue stress and unreal fears.
Success, that is the biggest fear I have. I have always been my worse enemy, but that has been changing. It's easier to fail than it is to succeed. Success begins with failure, and it's those who move through and carry on through that failure that eventually break through to success. Generalizations and cliches aside, it's time to thrive and be alive.
It's time for me to start write a story already. Okay, psyching myself up... next post will be a short story.
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