Wide Eye Doll (free write 4.30.19)

She haunts me,
Glowing pale
White skin.

She radiates
Light that keeps
my awake all night.

She is a troll
That demands
a toll at crossing.

We cross paths,
But I am broke.
She demands my soul,
That is broke too.

She haunts me,
Pale in daylight,
Lost in moonlight.
Alone I find myself

Beneath the moon,
Beneath the sun,
In the sheets,
I'm on the run.

She haunts me
Every day.
Will I last,
I cannot say.

Frozen

I sit in darkness -
A deep blue - midnight.
Things to do, yet I am
Unable to move.
Papers pile up while cupboards
Remain bare.  It's to cold
In this blue.  I no longer care.

I sit in darkness -
The sun is up,
And I have no urge
To walk outside.
I just sit and stare
In silence.

Everything is blue.
A cold smothering blue
That covers the earth.
A blue hue outlines the horizon,
Fading into black.

Vision does not always see clearly.
Perception outlined in blue.
Lost in blue, an ocean of blue.
A blue with depths of the seas,
A blue that is shallow like a wading pool.
A blue that is everything.

It will not let me go.
The blue is a magnet,
And I am it's opposite.
Draw to it, stuck, unable to move.
It has me, and I don't know what to do.

The blue is suffocating.
Every breath is difficult,
Every thought returns to focus
On this blue.  Nostalgia lost
to this blue.  All I see is blue.